By the End of This YEAR!!!?

Finally some news to share about our China adoption. Today I posted this on my China blog, but for those of you who don't read that one, i thought i would cross post. :)

FREAKING OUT!!! (in a good way!!)

In August, we will have been logged in for 4 years!! Which means we started the process to adopt a baby girl a year and a half before... We were in process with Kazakhstan for a year to adopt Alex and Kimi when Kaz changed some rules about adopting unrelated children at the same time... so we applied to China and good grief has it been a long time coming...

I don't regret any of it, because we now have Anthony and will have the "Kimi" that God planned for us. As well as so many of the other great things that have come from this long wait. Many of you know that for us... when God calls us to adopt we jump on it! And in the last couple weeks we have been "hearing" God call us to finally switch to the Waiting Child program with China. Many people call it the Special Needs program, but i have not liked the response that i usually get when i say it. We filled out a form last week listing special needs that we will consider if given the opportunity. Some of course are very minor, but some are not so much... although none of them have life long health concerns. Missing limbs is an example... most likely she would be perfectly healthy otherwise. Then there are things as minor as a birthmark! For a few days i found myself quite consumed with the thought that her body might not be perfect and how that will affect her life and i worried about myself seeing her as special needs when she was my daughter... it is hard to explain, but then i think i settled with the fact that she will be "just" our Kimi!!!! FINALLY, after all this time.

Our Agency told me that they would call me before a new listing of Children were put on the CCAA's site. Our Agency, you see will log into that site and "MATCH" us with a child, then send over the info... two days later i saw on the RQ site that a new SN (special needs) list was to com out on the 22nd! Yay! Then when the Agency called to talk with me about it, Lyndsay said that they only have a few people right now waiting for matches and that most likely they will be able to match us, too... talk about my heart stopping... or leaping out of my chest... something!! Oh my word... i have been able to think of nothing else since (hardly)! The 22 in China is actually the night of the 21st here!!!!!!!!!!!!! So Monday night some one may be matching us with Kimi!!!! I can hardly breath!!!

THAT IS TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my!!!! All day long, my heart has been freaking out!! I can hardly function! I just had to share with all my bloggy friends! Please Pray for God's hand to lead our "Match-Maker" tonight!!!! I can hardly breath normal! Good thing i have a ton of stuff to do today and really shouldn't even be blogging, but how can i resist!